Monday, June 1, 2009

Nose goes

I have this idea for a story about a woman who feels really held back by her nose. Like, she's insecure about it and she frequently blames any bad thing that happens to her on her nose. So then she decides to get a nose job and it looks fantastic. Everything turns out great--she gets more attention from men, she feels like people take her more seriously and all her other insecurities are generally resolved. She thinks she's really turned a corner in her life, and everything is going to be okay.

But you can't just get over insecurities by way of a scalpel, and she still has lingering issues with her appearance. She knows she looks fine now, but she has trouble seeing herself as attractive or really worthy of the attention she's receiving. She might get past this in time, but then comes a more troubling development. The new nose thinks life is so easy. The new nose thinks everything is handed to her on a silver platter. The new nose thinks that rewards just throw themselves at her without her even having to try. Yes, new nose, we might be beautiful now, but you don't understand what we've been through. You don't know what it's like to have people stare at you for the wrong reasons. You only know what it's like to receive positive attention; you've never lived on a face for which the best you can hope for is no attention at all. The woman soon turns against the new nose--or sees the new nose as having turned against her.

I'm not sure how it'll end yet. First there's some serious research I have to do. I want to interview people who have had nose jobs to ask them what made them to decide to get them; if there was any singular event; what reaction did they expect from strangers, friends, family, lovers, etc.; how said people actually did react, and what happened that they did not expect. I want to be able to talk to people who are satisfied with the result and people who are dissatisfied. Of course, the hardest part is finding people who will voluntarily respond to such questions, but I've already started thinking of the ad I'll one day put out on craigslist!

2 comments:

  1. Wait, so is this a horror story? Like, the nose actually has its own awareness and stuff?

    (I'd suggest doing some research into Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Might give you some stuff to work with.)

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  2. There is a Miranda July shot story in her collection "No One Belongs Here More Than You" about a woman who has a port wine birthmark on her face and then has it removed. Your idea sort of reminded me of that...just to give you some further research.

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